Pill Talking

I don't love you, baby

That was the pill talking

I've been running lately

Avoiding my real problems

I'm just sittin' here thinking there's gotta be more to life

For everything that I been through, my heart is colder than ice

Man, it's frozen, I can't wait 'til this chapter closes

I'm hopeless, the bible full of pressed roses

Sittin' on the counter reminds of times

That my eyes flowed like a fountain

My mind is full of cowards

Memories that I wish I could finally escape

I really wish that happiness had a time and a place

One thing I know, it's so hard letting go

I hold on (I hold on) to what kills me, baby (kills me, baby)

Sometimes I know I'd be better alone

I'm so cold (I'm so cold), I been damaged, baby (damaged, baby)

I don't love you, baby

That was the pill talking

I been running lately

Avoiding my real problems

I'm addicted to the hurt, I like that shit

And if pain was a woman, I would wife that bitch

I take the pin out the grenade, hold it and hug it

And let that motherfucker blow, I'm so self-destructive

Two words that describe me, savage and flawed

Cared nothing at all about the damage I cause

I walk out of a thing as fast as I came

Every time I try to change, it's gas to a flame

I get on a rollercoaster and don't even buckle up

Every time I get love, I feel the need to fuck it up

I do it every time with no hesitation

I don't know why, but I'm in love with self-deprecation

One thing I know, it's so hard letting go

I hold on (I hold on) to what kills me, baby (kills me, baby)

Sometimes I know I'd be better alone

I'm so cold (I'm so cold), I been damaged, baby (damaged, baby)

I don't love you, baby

That was the pill talking

I been running lately

Avoiding my real problems

There's something else that I feel in my soul

For so long I know my heart has frozen

Just how it goes, it's the highs and the lows

This I know, this I know

One thing I know, it's so hard letting go

I hold on (I hold on) to what kills me, baby (kills me, baby)

Sometimes I know I'd be better alone

I'm so cold (I'm so cold), I been damaged, baby (damaged, baby)

I don't love you, baby

That was the pill talking

I been running lately

Avoiding my real problems