Lord

I know I should try a little harder

Too stuck in my

Feeling like a bother

Lately I ain't been feeling right

I'm lost inside mind and getting out's a bigger fight

Anxiety taking over my life I need to get it right

Feeling short of breath fighting to breathe as I grip the night

Looking at my son tucked in and sleeping tight

Thinking if I die tonight it's him that I'm a leave behind

Living with this fear of dying deep inside

The pressure weighing down on my chest but keep in mind

I feel a break down building up but I can't seem to cry

You know that feeling of detachment from everything even life

But yet you feel so much it ain't even right

A constant battle within but you can't squeeze between the line

Got the nerve to ask god for the answers but still I question why

Like if he says go left I wanna press the right

There's death around the corner and I feel like I'm next in line

And if I am listen

Let me testify

Lord

Forgive me for my

Ways

I know I should try a little harder, I could be a better father, be a better man to my girl but I'm caught up

And I'm

Too

Stuck

In

My

Ways

I'm feeling like a bother, why would anybody wanna be apart of, this toxicity that I brought them

Is it a late night or early morning

It's Not important

I'm feeling cornered

My Back against the wall but moving forward

I'm fighting demons now there's more of them

Anxiety kicks when I find some boredom

You see I'm tryna get my mind straight it's veering off track

See It's mind over matter and my fear is of that

That I can't cant control it

Tryna find the motive, conversation tryna spark it I lost it as the wind keeps blowing

The boat is, rocking and stopping it, not an option it's obvious I lost focus

My Confidence, is dropping, It's lost in a dark ocean

The fire burning within ironic my minds frozen

Looking for my inner peace but I'm lost inside of the moment

I'm burying myself alive

Suffocating while I'm stuck inside, lace up for the fucking ride

Fuck these laces man I'm cutting ties

No longer are the strings attached so fuck you die

But you rather go to war, like I built for this

You Try to the settle the score gon have to kill the kid, but if I die that's death to you

So if you can get the best of me I get the best of you, cock back and let it shoot bow

Lord

Forgive me for my

Ways

I know I should try a little harder, I could be a better father, be a better man for my girl but I'm caught up

And I'm

Too

Stuck

In

My

Ways

I'm feeling like a bother, why would anybody wanna be apart of, this toxicity that I brought them

I'm tryna figure out life and where I'm headed

I'm tryna get out my mind can't find the exit, anxiety keeps building it's getting depressing

All these Panic attacks are never ending

How the fuck I'm gon cope with this

Especially when I'm losing hope with this

I thought I beat before but here it goes again

Family around but feel alone and shit, I got all the drive in the world but I'm motorless

Uh

I been dealing with this feeling since a little kid, 20 plus years and it ain't subsided even a little bit

Uh

So imagine my frustration

It's keeping me complacent

Lord please come save him

He's losing it can't take it

Will I die or will I make it

I'm stepping out my body tell the devil come and face him

Uh

It's getting harder to hide it please

Help me I'm praying to the higher being

Lord

Forgive me for my

Ways

I know I should try a little harder, I could be a better father, be a better man for my girl but but I'm caught up

And I'm

Too

Stuck

In

My

Ways

I'm feeling like a bother, why would anybody wanna be apart of, this toxicity that I brought them