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Yeah I wake up every morning, with my head up in a daze I'm not sure if I should say this, but I'll say it anyway Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay I battle with depression, but the question still remains Is this post-traumatic stressin', or am I suppressin' rage? And my doctor tries to tell me, that I'm goin' through a phase Yeah, it's not a fucking phase, I just wanna feel okay, okay? Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit every day And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me 'Cause I'm about to break down, searchin' for a way out I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster I break down, falling into love, now with falling apart I'm a popular, popular monster I think I'm going nowhere, like a rat trapped in a maze Every wall that I knock down, is just a wall that I replace I'm in a race against myself, I try to keep a steady pace How the fuck will I escape, if I never close my case? Oh my God, I keep on stressin', every second that I waste Is another second sooner to a blessin' I won't take But my therapist will tell me, that I'm goin' through a stage Yeah, it's not a fuckin' stage, I just wanna feel okay Okay, motherfucker, now you got my attention I need to change a couple things, 'cause something is missin' And what if I were to lie, tell you everything was fine? Every single fucking day, I get closer to the grave, I am terrified I fell asleep at the wheel again Crashed my car, just to feel again It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me 'Cause I'm about to break down, searchin' for a way out I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster I break down, falling into love, now with falling apart I'm a popular, popular fucking monster, raahw! Yeah, here we go again, motherfucker, yeah Sick and tired of wondering Praying to a god, that you don't believe We're searching for the truth, in the lost and found And so the question I ask is Hrrar, where the fuck is your god, now? Hrah, I'm about to break down, searching for a way out I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster I break down, falling into love, now with falling apart I'm a popular, popular monster I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster