How's this over already before shit's even started?

I finally learnt to love, not with my head, but with my heart again

And the chance that I took, lost a couple of friends

But then again, if they were friends, would've accepted understandably

Lucky, no family, if I came out, would the black side be mad at me?

Imagining my dad's brown eyes while he frowns at me

All for this girl, and I'm still here, writing a rhapsody

So here, I'm sitting in my room, heartbroken, fucking hurting

Putting too much love and time into one person

What an excursion, every right to be nervous

We're dealing with no purpose, every right to be assertive

For them to understand, they need to know how it started

How I met this light-skin girl at this party

And not once have I questioned before my sexuality

Not once have I considered a thought labelled artificiality

By society, held my head high and fucking labelled it spontaneity

Girl, the way I felt for you gradually grew to more than just carnality

Same career path, I'm in a fictional reality

If I can take this on, I'm unstoppable

I'm in this race, faced with different minor obstacles

Like talks behind my back, lost friends and fake love

Words are such like, "Do you really, really hate God?"

I like man, but I like girls too, and I'm admitting it

So tell me, really, what makes me and you so different?

Was it no sex before marriage in the commandments?

Ha, yeah, guess you're a sinner too

So fall the fuck back, and let's start re-examining

So drawn into my life, man, I need to start patterning

Take time and just freeze like a mannequin

I can't breathe like they strangling

You started chatting me, yeah

No lie, you started getting me gassed

It's feeling normal when you hit me up, I know that's my girl

I'ma respect you like a lover, yeah, you know that's my girl

Fuck this carousel, I want to see you again

Going in circles, why you playing when you're more than a friend?

Girl, and I don't want this to end

Girl, I tell you, loving you is more than a trend

Naturally, next, now is the time for division

The time for decision, the reason for recision

'Cause nothing ever lasts, everybody's greedy

Prick paying visits back to your past

Why's your ex still in the way like, are you missing all your memories?

I get it, sex marks ex like treasury

Last night, you gave me neck, I guess you're there just for accessory

Unfair games and no referee

Playing it by my rules

I'm turning spiteful

Argued every time we spoke

When I spoke, you professed to comprehend

My views of impediments

Oh, girl, you're trying to test

I'm disrespecting, getting stressed, hence, why I'm cursing you out

Moving reckless, cursed your ex,  continue mocking you clowns

So everybody knew about Tic Tac and Tramp

And how Tramp used Tic Tac just to drive her around

You shitty, little liars

Fuck you think, you're Bonny and Clyde?

So I had the bitch pulling up to my bumper

Next day, Snapchat, I went and burn the bitch's jumper

What messes me around ain't what's meant for me

Unnecessary arguments and stress

More stress, less trust and jealousy

Mitigate through music, my alone time is therapeutic

I would've been fucked-up way more than mentally

So here's my remedy for perplexity

Clear my head and give me some sense of supremacy

Depended on, say you won't let go

Go, fuck it, man, I don't trust these hoes