Heartbeat (Freestyle)

Tonight feels like the worst night of my life It's like the world is endin Why can't I do one thing right Except this form of self expression Every breath I take is painful Shit went left I lost direction Now I'm left with nothing Just a twisted lie and my reflection Fuck a happy ending This is real life, no fabrication I wake up tired I wake up dead inside, I have no motivation My mind and my body's devided I just can't handle this seperation Listen I can't even hide it Every song I write's a contemplation Y'all know I come with the bars Ink on my body to cover the scars I light a blunt then I fly with the stars I'm in a world of my own, I'm on Mars All of my secrets they tear me apart Shit that you won't even see from afar DRB I'll always be in the dark This ain't no beat, it's the beat of my heart Yeah, I ain't got nothin to prove Yall know what happens when I'm on the track I'm puttin nails in coffins Y'all must have forgot, so lemme remind I'm back Better than ever, but sadder than ever Depression is tearin and makin me crack Pull out December I'll make you remember those feelins you tried to leave in the past I ain't pretendin I'm meetin my destiny There ain't no savin me Nobody's blessin me I don't make friends I make money and enemies And I'm still keepin a hidden identity I'm undercover, it's killin me mentally My only medicine's makin these melodies Pain in these verses is my only therapy My only purpose is leavin a legacy Tonight feels like the worst night of my life It's like the world is endin Why can't I do one thing right Except this form of self expression Every breath I take is painful Shit went left I lost direction Now I'm left with nothing Just a twisted lie and my reflection Bitch I'm what a prophet is Yeah we're polar opposites I'm losin my consciousness My future is ominous No one know me, just the old me I remain anonymous I can't just erase my sins, I gotta face the consequence Nothin's next, I reached the end My time is up, don't cry for me I gave it my best But I just don't mesh with society I lost myself entirely Consumed by my anxiety When I move on from all this fucken pain I'll do it silently I never accepted myself cause nobody else did, my life was a lie I'm always hurtin myself when I'm all by myself It's like I'm only waitin' to die I've given up but I had a good run Listen I swear that I tried and I tried I just decided I'm sayin' goodbye So if you need me look up to the sky I'm gone