Tightrope

I've been fighting this shit, longer than I've known ya I've been praying on moments that never seem to happen Follow your steps, follow your words Say I never deserved the ones I love You got me out of here Promised a life of ecstasy and roses Turned me around to sewage water and poison Don't know what I'm saying Don't know why I needed To do what I'm doing On my knees and pleading Don't know why the blood is coming out of me, rapidly I wanna go home but now this feels like a tragedy Don't wanna be here in the morning when the lights come on Mistakes of the night before waking up to my alarm You tell me everything's fine, but it's really not You got me on this tightrope that I can't walk (I can't walk) Don't know how I'm losing versus all these feelings All the things your saying, tryna give it meaning Don't know why the lights went from glowing to flickering It's like a blink where everything goes missing I'm breaking down the pillars you put up to save my shit Talking to rubble, arguing over whose listening And here I go, you should know You should know I'm an introvert, except when I'm feeling like an expert Good luck stopping my mouth, words Come out like sucker punches Outta nowhere, in the silence, outta mind Choose your poison, choose your life, I'll choose mine Mixed opinions, about my brain, you're outta time, you're outta time Don't wanna be here in the morning when the lights come on Mistakes of the night before waking up to my alarm You tell me everything's fine, but it's really not I'm hanging off this tightrope that I can't walk