Carnival

I quit the carnival and moved next door thought i'd had enough but i wanted more so now i'm sneaking out at night i clean my face and shine my shoes and go where i'm not supposed to see i tamed a lion once i stole his roar stripped his pride away but he found more so now he's out to take what's his and shove my future in my face and scare me back in my place so soon so soon you've got it beat 'til it eats you see i left my flaming sword beside your bed i woke to find it pressed against my neck you wept suggestion never works so now i'm trying something else i shut my eyes hold on. oh well and i felt a feather fall a tree trunk split inside my lying mouth played violin he said you should give up your voice before we both end up destroyed i quit alrighthe purred good boy you'll fall for anything when you're caught you'll believe anyone and i said that's not exactly true only you, you do what you do you awake in the hospital in a thrift store suit you hear your lover's voice from the waiting room you shut your eyes and pray for peace think i'm not here this isn't me this isn't something i would do i know the complicated truth a big top tent a firey sword i make a mask of lions roar but they're not real and never were and soon she won't be real either this is the life you went and earned because you never fucking learn you could use up all of your years fixing the mess you make in here so as her nervous dress draws closer dress heels click off their approach you clutch your chest and whisper "oh no, what will i do? what will i do? my love, my love, what will i do?"