I charish love deeply until I lost the feeling 

The circumstances I was in was truly unforgiving 

I gave it all to a queen I really thought was fitting 

But we dont even talk no more communication Slipping 

Now I'm building up  walls that people never Breaching 

And you could call it what you want my self esteem Was weakened 

I put my pride to side 

Don't know what I was thinking 

I guess reality is stronger then dreams 

Made myself believe that we was a thing 

I needed clarity 

Now I'm drinking liquor with **** I really hate to Be

Feeling this option that would numb all the pain

Take my breath away from this girl Mary Jane 

Fishing in the ocean that these people often speak of

It never do work me

Always did the worst for me 

Ever fish I cought I had to throw it back in 

I'm convinced everything I had fling

It's rare to catch me venting bout my issue 

That's my issue 

I'm so stubborn with it 

I never share my feeling 

I keep it locked up in the cubbert

Where it shall remain to be 

For all eternity 

Spring suppose to be the time we come alive 

Lately all the love inside my heart has died

Spring suppose to be the time we come alive

Lately all the love inside my heart has died

I'm like f that I cant show no love because 

They heartless 

I might fall back into a pit of darkness aint no calling

Lost my contacts, now I can not reimburse my losses

Ain't no call backs I just get the dial tone for the longest

Where your thoughts at, erase all your memories like what dont recall that 

Funny how some people love you only when you spend cash 

Till they find somebody else balling then they draw Back 

Boy I find it funny how they draw back 

Imagine me tryna steal a person energy 

When all they gave me was there love and positives 

And I abuse it for somebody else thats into me 

So i ignore them tryna channel somthing differently 

And that went sideways oh yeah that went sideways 

Knowing are potential could a spark a human Alignment 

Always kept it passive, I was showing to much 

Reveling all my weakness, guessed I cared to much 

Misery

Misery

Misery truly loves company 

I always peeped

I always peeped

How you came around and stole my energy 

Run little one run little one run 

Run little one run little one run

Run little one run little one run

Run little one

Dopamine that dopamine that dopamine that dope

Dopamine that dopamine that dopamine that dope

Dopamine that dopamine that dopamine that dope

Fire burning 

Passion and desire got my feeling going

Fire burning 

Never found a love that could be eternal 

Fire burning 

Passion and desire got my feelings going

Fire burning

Tell me what Is real is it color coded