Haunt

The span of the last ten years has only made this harder to cope with Still trying to forgive your abandonment Brought to light in pestilential sunsets Reminding me that I'll wake up to another morning of disorder And I never got to say goodbye My heart is tired from recollecting every moment spent together And I would burn them from my brain if I could So cauterize every synapse I have in exchange For forgetting you were buried on my birthday I am still bereaved Is the cancer coming after me? Am I who I should be? Is the sickness welling up in me? I am incomplete You are the missing piece The thought of you in a hospital bed has Awoken the fear of my youth and the absence you left Even if the pain goes overlooked I'll fight my way through with every pulse in my wrist Even if I believed you could hear me I'd still want you to know that I am who I am For myself and no one else For myself and no one, I am who I am