A Gift A Curse

What I've done, what I've seen

The lives I've touched what does it mean?

Losing track of everything

I gave it all, but what did I gain?

And I don't care what waits for me on the other side of life's release

Cause when I close my eyes your face is all I see

So even if I die I'll never rest in peace

I was desperate just to shine

Now I struggle constantly to survive

I, I have nothing to prove to you

What I've done, what I've seen

The lives I've touched what does it mean?

Losing track of everything

I gave it all, but what did I gain?

And I don't care what waits for me on the other side of life's release

Cause when I close my eyes your face is all I see

So even if I die I'll never rest in peace

And I've tried so many times to show that what I feel is real

No, this is not a joke

But you keep pushing me

Yeah, you keep pushing me

And now you've gone too far

And there's no turning back

And now I hope you choke and fucking burn in hell

Burn

Nothing changes

All I know is that

I'm alone in this

Silently I wait

Hoping you'd come back for me

I'm alone in this

Silently I wait

Hoping you'd come back for me

Seems like I'll be

Waiting 'till the end

Knowing that I can't speak to you again

Truth is you were never there

I don't need your empty words or bullshit sympathy

So here's a gift for all those years of mocking me

Now I wish all this evil upon you

You deserve to feel what I'm going through

Now I wish all this evil upon you

You deserve to feel what I'm going through