Dead and Cold

I wish I was dead and cold I wish I was dead I forgot what you looked like treated me so damn child like you treating this like a movie but this shits real life I wish I'd tell you every single thing I dislike about you and everything that you do you made me wish that I had never ever went up to you you made me wish that I had sat down and just thought it all through you made me wish I had another party to attend to but I don't know what to do for the rest of my life I mean everything I had lined up to you as my wife everything I do just makes me wanna grab a knife and cut down to the bone that's what I do when it is night death what I think is what is gonna happen breath on my neck kiss you take off the fashion throw the flag this girl just broke my heart now I'm losing all my progress and I'm going back to start pain all the time just want it to go away sleep anytime anything to be okay you were a dime it was all a big cliche and now I'm goin' down a stair way get it to hell cuz that's where I belong if that wasn't the case then why would I be writing songs and I'm sorry girl sorry that I can't be very strong seems like that every single little thing I did I did it wrong and well sorry that's the case if I really wanted to, I just couldn't see your face if I really wanted to, I could get out of this place and I don't mean travel I mean go straight to my death place going in blindly man, I was looking mindless coming out both of my eyes are looking lifeless and if you wonder why I'm keeping peace and silence its cuz I am pretending that I'm on my own island