My Demise

See, we coulda had it all but you're messing with my mind. Coulda kept you close but you never make the time. I've been stepping out of line, even thinking that you're mine. And if I'm being honest I just wanna see you shine, But I doubt you ever will 'cos you're the type of girl, That just loves to fuck with feelings - feel you're in it for the thrill. I just wish you'd kept it real. Real to yourself. Don't be thinking that I'll still be here on the shelf 'cos I won't be. I know you're sat thinking that you know me, Truth be told I think you only know the old me. It's never you that I envision when I go sleep. I don't dream. I wanna be alone but still I'm sick of feeling lonely. Always been the type but there's some I can't leave behind. And I can't deny that I'm really a needy guy. You don't love me but you love it when you see me try. I don't know why I do, I swear this gon' be my demise. Somehow you always got me messed up, Always thought that I'd be stronger but I'm still stuck, On you, 'cos everything you do has got me love struck. I hate myself for it, I guess they call it "dumb love". And when I think about the past and how we fucked up. We was dumb and young, in love, and it was our drug. And when things we're good we'd sit and ride out our buzz, That's the reason that I'm always feeling hard done by. But I still fight, my thoughts, try and keep 'em inside, Confined, locked away a long time. Never see the sunshine. Never see the light, I need a lifeline. Say I'm fine when deep inside I wanna give it one try. Always been the type but there's some I can't leave behind. And I can't deny that I'm really a needy guy. You don't love me but you love it when you see me try. I don't know why I do, I swear this gon' be my demise.