Still Lost 2

I didn't ask for this life, I was born in it I'm alive but my soul died, I'm just mourning it I got everything I ever wanted, yet I See the world moved on and slowly left me behind Saw my ex's pregnant now, damn should've been mine Thought she was the one for me, it hurts me still I can't lie Saw my friends settle down, turn to husband and wives And starting families, I've watched them all from the side It's like they found the thing I search for But never could find And no one told me success will leave you empty inside When no one's there to share it with, fuck how careless was I To not notice them using me, ones who swear they would ride Until the end, I've hit the end and now they're nowhere in sight I'm so motherfucking lonely and there's nowhere to hide I have struggles, they're aware yet they never tried to see if I'm fine How much can I take Lost along the way I'm still lost, still lost I'm not the same How long can this wait I'm about to break I'm still lost, still lost I'm not the same (same) I didn't ask for this life, I was brought in it I still feel alone despite, my big audience I know they say that time is supposed to heal But all time ever did was show me time isn't real All my let's just be friends, aren't my friends anymore Those who used to check on me, never check anymore Wonder if they'll come and see me, when I'm out here on tour Or will they see the ad for it, laugh, and leave it ignored Not like I need them, 'cause we know I made it the farthest At times I wanna finish on the path we have started I'm heartless 'cause I'm owed apologies that I'll never get I'm tryna forgive myself and burn away my regrets No one's left, feels like I'm losing control I swear this winter's about to be cold People tell me that I'm winning, when I already know The only issue is I hate that I'm winning alone, damn I'm tired, I'm tired I'm tired of being alone How much can I take Lost along the way I'm still lost, still lost I'm not the same How long can this wait I'm about to break I'm still lost, still lost I'm not the same (same)