Blackout

Put myself in a dark hell How am I doing I'm not well Just woke up in a motel Alone guess I blacked out Popping pills not paying bills I can't sit still my cup re-fills I'm getting chills I know the drill Ohh I'm feeling ill Mixing with lemonade Give in to my decay Only myself to blame Mamma I know she prays No friend will lend a hand Burned every bridge I'm in Not one lie left to tell I know I need help I'm breaking Can you change me In a nightmare Somebody wake me Treading water Till I can't see I blackout won't wake up till tomorrow Watch me drown at the bottom of a bottle Killing myself Till I blackout Living in hell Till I blackout Want it to be over Waking up sober Catch my breath and I count to three I want it to be over Devil's on my shoulder Lift this curse right off of me Blackout, I blackout Blackout, I blackout Drinking smoking three packets Thinking don't be so average Shaking in a jean jacket See panic Mean addict That's when dreams vanish Want me to rehab it It's passed a bad habit I can't stand it I need answers I'm breaking Can you change me In a nightmare Somebody wake me Treading water Till I can't see I blackout won't wake up till tomorrow Watch me drown at the bottom of a bottle Killing myself Till I blackout Living in hell Till I blackout Want it to be over Waking up sober Catch my breath and I count to three I want it to be over Devil's on my shoulder Lift this curse right off of me Truth is burning in my eyes Feeling like I'm half alive I swear this is the last time Escaping my suicide Truth is burning in my eyes Feeling like I'm half alive I swear this is the last time Escaping my suicide Blackout, I blackout Blackout, I blackout Won't wake up till tomorrow Watch me drown at the bottom of a bottle Killing myself Till I blackout Living in hell Till I blackout Want it to be over Waking up sober Catch my breath and I count to three Want it to be over Devil's on my shoulder Lift this curse right off of me