Addicted to My Phone

Yeah I'm Just Tryna to Find peace Yeah It's like I don't even know I'm addicted to my phone because I'm tryna escape All the pain that I feel I keep running away Somebody asked the other day How are you depressed and you're a Christian You're supposed to love God I don't get it, well that's the problem Most people hide behind religion And when you speak your truth Most people don't wanna listen I talk about the pain cos what I'm going through is real And my relationship with God is the way that I learn to heal Wish we talked about the things that we're too afraid to share Wish we would stop pushing away the ones who really care I really want love but I struggle with abandonment People come and go and I'm tryna to learn how to handle it Way to many exes, don't wanna know who's next It's hard to let go when you hold on to regrets Scars to my chest, I don't wanna be exposed But I'm writing you this song as the key to my soul So you could go If I'm real I'm addicted to you Anything that will bring me peace Anything that is right Just tryna find a way to cope Yeah Look Why has my phone become the only place to sin and to feel safe And a crowd full of people, I'm so quick to escape Why do I scroll just to focus on the things that I hate Compare myself to other people who can never relate Hell you're happy And I know it ain't all real Just because I know it, it don't change the way I feel Trying not to text my ex, we being so toxic together Old habits die hard when you wanna feel better I want peace Wanna feel loved but got somebody changing me Looking in the mirror Wanna love what I see I know that you got options but you won't need choosing me All that happy ever after, this was always supposed to be The type of love that you never want to leave But I can't expect from you what I'm never giving to me Tryna learn to love the good and the ugliest parts of me So I can open up my heart and give someone all of me Ohh So I guess I'm done with all there is to say I'm tryna figure it out Just like every body else I mean I got good days Sometimes Really bad days, but I wanna learn how to love you With all of me The broken The bruised And I want you to see everything So you can love me for who I really am