I'm in a bit of a downswing again

It's happened before, but did I think that I was feeling better back then

Every night I wonder am I feeling better am I feeling worse than I have ever felt before

Every morning nothing's changed or

Everything is different once again but keeping track is such a chore

I'm in a bit of a downswing again

It's happened before, but didn't I think I was feeling better back then

How can I remember where I've been

Am I supposed to know exactly where I'm coming from and where I'm going

Can't be sure if I've felt better or worse than I do right now, my doubt is surely showing

Numbers, charts, and ranking

Take measure while demons are flanking

I've got no right to be this scared

Track moods, symptoms, feelings

My still and quiet mind is reeling

In a world that's crumbling, how well do you fare

Every night I wonder is the world a little better is the world a little worse than it has been before

Every morning nothing's changed or everything is different once again but keeping track is such a chore

I always try to look on the bright side

But there're all these shadows in the way

I try to count the happy moments

Try not to let them slip away

They may

But they'll be back again to play

I'm in a bit of a downswing again

It's happened before, and it'll happen some more, and more, but then

A ray of sunshine, something hopeful, something happy, something slightly less sour and more sweet

A thing to get me out of bed, to brighten up my head and give me a reason to move my feet

I think I might stop tracking

There's just no use in cracking

A code that'll never be broken

It doesn't exist

Keep making revelations

Forget them overnight

And start again

But still we will persist