Clueless

I'm tryna keep my shit together I'm tryna keep my head together My heart's cold like winter weather My heart's cold like winter weather I'm just really tryna be better I'm just really tryna be better Why's it so hard to be better? Why's it so hard to be better? Can't help myself I'm fallin' You were my drug I'm withdrawing Don't really know what I want from this Is this all an illusion? I'm clueless Can't help myself I'm fallin' You were my drug I'm withdrawing Don't really know what I want from this Is this all an illusion? Tired of "keep on holdin' on" Ima let me fall I blame myself at fault Every time things go wrong Why don't nobody ever listen? When I spill out my feelings They just go missin' False imagery Things don't appear as you wanna see Tryna be the best that you can be Pays a big toll on ya mentally I might say things they don't wanna hear I could say things that they would fear What I gotta do to make it clear? I'm tryna keep my shit together I'm tryna keep my head together My heart's cold like winter weather My heart's cold like winter weather I'm just really tryna be better I'm just really tryna be better Why's it so hard to be better? Why's it so hard to be better? Can't help myself I'm fallin' You were my drug I'm withdrawing Don't really know what I want from this Is this all an illusion? I'm clueless Can't help myself I'm fallin' You were my drug I'm withdrawing Don't really know what I want from this Is this all an illusion?