Mac Miller

I know the sound of fear When there's no hope around or near I was broken down in tears Felt like I'd hold it down for years But it finally surfaced. And I'm slightly nervous I know what it's like to spiral, searchin' For hope in this life. And I'm kinda hurtin' You don't wanna know what's inside or behind the curtain These drugs get vilified, yet they're still prescribed Mac Miller died. And I ain't even know that man But still I cried, head in my hopeless hands And it didn't have much to do with him Or the drug usage in the music biz The truth is it felt like the last straw I yelled Life's too damn hard! I just can't... God! Why do you torture me? All apologies They ask what misfortunes seem to have befallen me 'Cause all they see is the happy posts He laughs and jokes, even brags and boasts But the richest man is not he who has the most My job is screwin' me And stickin' to my principles will probably ruin me I got no one to listen to, talk, or humor me We grew it seems Congruently but then we drifted apart This is the part that gives me the spark I sit in the dark at 11 past 11 Tryin' to wish on a star. Never had a chance at heaven It was this from the start I keep inflicting this harm in spite of myself Been cryin' for help now for many years But it seems my pleas fall on the deafest ears I'm in freefall, no ascension here My cash is tapped like a keg of beer Tryin' to get back on track like an engineer But they applaud the train wreck. Let 'em cheer Let 'em cheer I just been living in hell I don't know why we keep killin' ourselves When you're alive, music sits on the shelf But when you die, it contributes to sales I just been livin' in hell I don't know why we keep killin' ourselves When you're alive, music sits on the shelf But when you die, it contributes to sales I just wanna inspire you I don't wanna hide the truth I don't wanna be sad no more I don't wanna be sad I don't wanna be sad no more I don't wanna be sad I just wanna inspire you The way he did me I don't wanna be sad no more I don't wanna be sad I don't wanna be sad no more I don't wanna be sad I don't wanna be sad no more I don't wanna be sad I don't wanna be sad no more