Yeah

I pray to god like every night before I fall asleep

I never thought that I would find myself this lost and weak

I know that talk is cheap

I'm tryna prove how much I've changed

These demons haunting me

That's why my hearts in constant angst

Yeah

I'm tryna paint the horrors in my mind

I can't explain this awful pain that leaves me walking blind

I'm not denying my flaws

I know I've caused so many tears

Was tryna hide it all by popping pills to mask my fears

Oh

Oh what a lie

Oh look what I have done

Oh who am I

These suicidal thoughts got me outrunned

Load the gun cock it back and I contemplate

Will the sun rise tomorrow will I be saved

Yeah

I swear these days feel like they never end

I'm heaven sent so I refuse to let the devil in

Been meddling with drugs and alcohol to drift away

Back pedaling on my beliefs I feel so damn ashamed

Yeah

I know I failed you and I'm truly sorry

I know I fell through this depression mentally it scarred me

But still I'm marching through the trenches got my faith in God

I know he's watching every second just in case I fall

Naw

No I can't win this war alone

I know I need your love I need your strength to bring me home

My weakened bones

They are renewed within your word

My bleeding soul will heal I know you'll save me from the dirt dear God