And I been feeling this type of way for so long

My heart been hella empty, and I think my soul gone

And I can't care about nobody feelings, what about my own, oh

And I know

That I been hurt inside, that's just real life

I've been starting to realize that you can say you love me

But that isn't what it feel like

Don't talk to me about loyalty, 'cause that ain't what it feel like

But if you ask me if I'm okay, then I feel fine

And you can see that I'm alive but I'm still dying

OK, "Stop doing them drugs", but I'm still high

And I can't even tell the truth, OK, I'm still lying

I think that I need a vacation on the hillside

I think that I been movin slower every day

I think I'm stuck inside my habits, that's okay, oh

I pray to God He hold my hand up through the rain, oh

I pray that nobody gon' test me, not today

Cause I'm at the edge, and I might just put you in the concrete

It make me feel some type of way, who gon' stop me

Don't go trying to save me

Oh, I can promise I'm beyond reach

I just want a mansion in the hills with the palm trees, woah

And I want bands

And I want a brand new Mercedes, I don't want friends

I wanna pay my momma's debt so she can live

And I want some jewelry for every single one of my limbs

I been hurt inside, that's just real life

I've been starting to realize that you can say you love me

But that isn't what it feel like

Don't talk to me about loyalty, 'cause that ain't what it feel like

But if you ask me if I'm okay, then I feel fine

And you can see that I'm alive but I'm still dying

OK, "Stop doing them drugs", but I'm still high

And I can't even tell the truth, OK, I'm still lying

I think that I need a vacation on the hillside

I think that I need a vacation

Or a maybach and some bands, baby

Why you got your arm extended, when i ain't shakin no hands

Lately, I dont trust a soul, like what you think it is in my pants, baby?

Right now I'm alone in my bed

Don't try to come, it's no chance baby

And I thought that had been known

You tried switch on me like Nintendo

Your man tripping, he ain't get the memo

Now he got a toe tag, but I'm 10 toes

Like, why you acting so ghetto?

That ain't a boyfriend, that's a demo

Ask me how I been doing, I'm good baby, I guess so

I been hurt inside, that's just real life

I've been starting to realize that you can say you love me

But that isn't what it feel like

Don't talk to me about loyalty, 'cause that ain't what it feel like

But if you ask me if I'm okay, then I feel fine

And you can see that I'm alive but I'm still dying

OK, "Stop doing them drugs", but I'm still high

And I can't even tell the truth, OK, I'm still lying

I think that I need a vacation on the hillside

And you can see that I'm alive, but I'm still dying

And I can't even tell the truth, OK, I'm still lying

I think that I need a vacation on the hillside