Never Dreamed

I never dreamed I'd make it past twenty-one

That's as far as I could imagine when I was young

And by the time I'd got there I'd done my best

To reduce the number of years that I had left

And I can see with hindsight, I was such a dick

I spent the next ten years trying to make up for it

See, I've done my share of things that I shouldn't have done

And I'd done most of them by the time I was twenty-one

I never dreamed I'd make it past twenty-five

I hit my quarter century and somehow I'm still alive

I've spent the last one thousand four hundred and sixty days

Repeating old mistakes in new and ridiculous ways

And I've accomplished nothing, well, nothing of worth

Unless you count being drunk an accomplishment

My reason for being is yet to arrive

You'd think it'd show its face by the time I was twenty-five

I never dreamed I'd make it to thirty-two

And if you're being honest, well, nor did you

I'd know enough by this point to know I don't know much at all

I never learn my lessons and I keep on being taught more

And I'm a poor imposter of the man I should be

I never reached the heights I said I would achieve

And I'm sorry, darling, and that's the awful truth

I'm as amazed as you are I got to thirty-two