Back to the basics

I'm withholding my statements

I've been tired of waiting

9-5 won't help me make it

Mirror staring back with hatred

Every time it's seeing me

That's why I don't be spending time

Reflecting who I wanna be

I'm in way too deep to pack it up

Dip out and leave

Already been here for some years

Might as well just sit and see

The movie that I'm in gotta be on IMAX screen

The pain I'm in is scary

Make a **** wanna scream

My friends 1000 miles away

Don't know who would show up if they found out that I died today

I said way back in 17 that I wish that I could fly away

Can't let nobody violate

But I ain't even violent it's the crazy thoughts that's driving me

Auto pilot when I get outta bed what I'm tryna say

You ever had the world tell you something that you just don't mind today

Like you do this and do that

I moved out and moved back

They over pass me when I couldn't bridge the gap

I lost alot of people, almost lost myself in rap

When I tried to turn around they all just stabbed me in my back

Deposit money depleted

I'm almost all outta reasons

To even dress for the season

I seem stress more when I need it

I had goals like distant cousins

Never got a chance to meet em

Food for thought

Just ain't got an appetite to eat it

Feeling lost

But maybe that's a sign that I ain't a reading

Am I wrong

I thought that I had all the rightful reasons

Y'all hear songs

But really it's my life broken into pieces

For a cost

To get paid pennies from the streaming

Who'd a thought

That I ain't end up landing where they said that I belong

Or maybe it's too soon to write it off

When I'm gone

Don't want nobody saying that he could've would've should've

When I had so many years to prove them all

Not at all

I think it's funny how I spent time trying to paint pictures

Just to have it end up in a draw