It’s like a sick obsession

I feel it in my bones

It’s not my fault just blame it on the lack of self-control

I start to lose myself when I feel the drip

It doesn’t matter the taste as long as I get my fix

It’s not a problem

It’s not a problem

I’m not addicted this is only a phase

A lie we tell ourselves to hide from the shame

So give me

Just another bump to settle the nerves

Just another empty bottle ‘cause it’s what we think we deserve

Why aren’t these fucking pills numbing the pain?

Spend another lonely night just erasing the day

Decay

So give me more, more, more

Til I can’t feel at all

Descending quicker

And I can’t stifle the fall

It’s as if my mind resides in a cage

This is all I need to aid an escape

And It’s always good but it’s never enough

So give me

Just another bump to settle the nerves

Just another empty bottle ‘cause it’s what we deserve

Why aren’t these fucking pills numbing the pain?

Every single fucking day I swear I’m going insane

So I load up on this poison just to cover my thoughts

Chase it with another one-night stand I’ll forget like the hundreds before

I know I’m broken but I can’t seem to change

Maybe if I scrub hard enough I’ll erase the stains?

But I can’t shake the feeling

I’ll end up dying this way

Losing control of my life

To the vices I take

So here’s to one more night spent reversing the ache

Praying tomorrow's the day I find peace while awake

Regress. Reset. Begin Again