Sitting in the bleachers
Waiting for my time
Crushes on all the student teachers
Searching for that perfect line
I always wanted just to fit in but couldn't sit in
The role of what a woman should be
And when the girls came around in jerseys
Hard to play down I was weak in the knees
Remember how I felt back then
Scared to tell any of my friends
Was it contextual?
Or am I bisexual?
Standing on a church pew
Screaming out to something
Never wanted to hurt you
And I can't say all that shit meant nothing
I always knew I couldn't live up, needed to give up
What they said I was called to be
And when you asked me to choose between
God and you, it's true I chose myself and me
Remember how I felt back then
Sometimes I still feel it again
I don't really mind it
Still trying to find it
Used to lean on it like a crutch
Now I know I don't know that much
I might be unsteady
But maybe I'm ready
Maybe I'm ready
