Visions

I wear lace underwear to go nowhere And no one walks me home Keeps me like a secret, my own company I'm reaping what I've sown And I am treading water on the uptown A I just can't stand to be alone These days, these days I'm going by a different name But I still look just like my mother Her visions biting at my heels While I become a better bluffer And David wakes up early Just to call my name I just can't stand to be alone These days, these days I've got an awful vision of you in the hall Looking at your songbird after the free-for-all You took her out and took her home Took the train down from Connecticut Looked so small then We talk about the weather, getting better If I'm having any fun Choke on my diplomacy Tell me you've been seeing someone And I blew half my paycheck Just to get to your place I just can't stand to be alone These days, these days I've got an awful vision of you in the fall Tending your resentment, letting it grow so tall You took me out and took me home Took the train down from Connecticut Felt so small then I begged you not to visit, you laughed me off "Never was an option," knew you'd hate what you saw You took me out and took me home But the train down from Connecticut Takes so long Did you feel wicked? Or just indifferent? Or anything at all?