Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be? (Uh-huh)

So many losing hope in those dreams that they

Walkin' past the homeless in a Rolex

Just got off the stage on the TODAY Show and I basically felt soulless

Years go by and I keep saying I'm gon' use my phone less, but I should just be phone-less

Ignorance is bliss and so is bein' underground

'Cause it was fun when we were known less

Sorry, that's cliche, I know I'm so blessed

But Jason keeps on tellin' me, "Say yes," and truth be told, I know he knows best

But I don't wanna do no press

I've seen enough of me on this lil' screen

I've become so vain and insecure 'bout everything

I feel all this pressure to live up to what they tell me I'm gon' be

So I isolate myself, you can't help me, it's on me

I'm hidin' any sign of weakness from my guys

I don't want 'em second-guessin' with me

Nemo said to keep my foot on necks 'cause I can't let 'em just forget me

But the brags in my raps are getting less and less convincing

So I'd rather just

Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be?

So many losing hope in those dreams that they

I wrote that first verse in Denver, back in September

It's January now and I'm feelin' like myself again

I got Angel back in here, I need his help again

I'm takin' time away but wonderin' what a healthy helping is

Fuck it, they gon' check for me, I tell myself and tell my friends

Avoidin' any talks about the elephant

Chalkin' up the hate to jealousy and just embellishments

But deep down, I find myself wonderin'

If the people that write about me are right about me

And I wonder if my exes are oversharin' 'cause they know a lot about me

I'm a long way from Shelby County

I been through some local tension, heard talks of a healthy bounty

Sober and focused, I cannot walk down no deli alleys

I still got the fellas 'round me, I love 'em and tell 'em proudly

My mama needs help adjusting, my father needs help accounting

I'm lookin' out heaven's window, I know that there's hell around me and

Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be?

So many losing hope in those dreams that they