I’m not perfect

None of us are, that I know

But I’m tired of the voices telling me so

Over these things I can’t control

I’m just as weird as you think I am

This nose is big and I got messed up hands

My eyes are far and I’m standing short

I don’t care about my physicality anymore

Will I meet her? Not right now

I just wanna find out what my life’s about

And if she comes? Good, I hope she likes me

I love myself at the moment and that’s all I need and

I didn’t do this for fame, or for family and friends so that they can celebrate

I did this for me, so when I look in the mirror

There’s a good person there and I’ll be amazed

Goodbye, goodbye

I hope y’all had a real fantastic time

Goodbye, goodbye

I hope y’all liked this chapter of my life

No more fear in me, I mean that seriously

In terms of goats, the ledge ends/legends here with me

Just kidding, I’m not killing ‘till he does it for me

Even if today sucks, there’s another morning

I won’t see most of y’all after I leave

So what the heck does popularity matter to me?

As long as my grades are in tip-top shape

I can goof around and joke until I graduate

And nobody’s ugly, I’m speaking truth

And there’s always somebody who wishes they were you

The only thing we’re owed is love and happiness

And you can’t cure depression, but you deserve the best

So, tell somebody close if you’re feeling sad today

Slit your throat? Tie a rope? Please don’t, okay?

‘Cause you’re gonna go far, if you accept who you are

So when you’re at your deathbed, you can happily say

Goodbye, goodbye

I hope y’all had a real fantastic time

Goodbye, goodbye

I hope y’all liked this chapter of my life

I said hi, now it's time for goodbye

I don’t know where I’ll go from here

But I know that I’m ready, but I know that I’m ready

I don’t know where I’ll go from here

But I know that I’m ready, but I know that I’m ready

Not done yet

I won’t have to like what y’all like

As long as I’m creative, baby, I’ll be alright

I don’t gotta be drunk and hold up the mic

I don’t gotta hit the blunt and write this tight

Trying that stuff would be nice

But the media shouldn’t paint my ideal life

My summer paled compared to my other friends

But I’m here for another year, another ‘gain

Human interaction sound foreign to me

Not boring to me, but adoring to see

Maybe a girlfriend isn’t what I need

But this world and thoughts don’t agree with me

The family getting distant, I heard, I knew

And we looking at our phones with that bird-eye view

The time to hang now with the brother is fiction

And the kitchen looking emptier every minute

We’re all growing up, showing up and out

And I’m tryna find the happiness I had as a child

It’s getting harder to smile, with colleges to try out

And in the meanwhile, I’m trying not to pout

And the future is coming, and I’m still running

Back to those times when I wasn’t cutting

But I gotta love me and me the best

And that’s the story of CTCS

Why don’t you look at you? Being all happy

Oh, yeah. Uh…I-I love myself. (chuckles) Finally

Oh? Do you really now?

Yeah, I do. I mean…I-I think I do, anyway

Hmm. I sense trepidation in that voice. Are you sure? Are you really content with yourself?

No no, I am! And I’m very content, it’s…it’s just that

Oh? What is it? Is it that you’re still just 60% to some folks no matter what you do? You’ll never have somebody to reinforce that love physically and verbally when you inevitably revert back to me?

Uhhh...well, uh

You’re…stammering over there buddy. What…what is it?

Mmmm...mmmm

You…you don’t even need to say it. You miss me. I know you do. You miss how I leave scars on you. You miss my words of belittlement

Yeah, I do

I know I’m a big reason as to why you’re not in front of her, right? Because you love me too much

Yeah…I do love you

Awww. Come here, buddy. There, there. You’re gonna crash and burn. Don’t worry. Just remember something for me, you ugly, sad, pathetic excuse of a life?

Mm-hm? What is it?

You’re not perfect