paradox

So I guess this is how it starts But you gotta listen Don't wanna be a buzzkill Oh god It's all going downhill Fuck Reinvent myself three times a week A bit of dopamine, some creativity How come everybody around me Is so fucking sad Is so fucking sad So fucking Cherry joints, leather jackets Disappointment it's a habit We can't help it anymore It's a shitshow But I'm a go-getter Took a year off And now I know better (AHHH) My head hurts 'Cause I'm a paradox Like a crashed car 'Cause I think too much I'm a train wreck How will they react? When I'm actually losing my mind For real? You would hate that You keep playing Maybe we're all just wasting our time You almost ruined it You fucking idiot Shit made me wanna die The confusion is You're an illusionist Begging to finally get called out