i shouldn’t be here

I always thought that I'd find peace in never being

Awake long enough to feel anything

I wouldn't venture past the edge of listening

'Cause there was nothing to the table I could bring

And it gets harder to conceal it as the evenings pass

That every moment of this year competes to be my last

But when I'm feeling myself fall

You're tightening your grasp, oh oh

Oh, I shouldn't be here

The things I've put you through

There's nothing without you

Oh, I shouldn't be here

The things I've made you lose

I'm nothing without you

I wish you didn't have the strength to carry me

I know it's hard to watch me walk unsteadily

I'd understand if I'm not where you want home to be

You shouldn't have to be afraid every time you leave

And it gets harder to believe it as the evenings pass

That we're now half way through the year

And on my feet I stand

I think there's something in me still

That let's you pull me back, oh oh

Oh, I shouldn't be here

The things I've put you through

There's nothing without you

Oh, I shouldn't be here

The things I've made you lose

I'm nothing without you

You follow me into the night

Just so I can see the sun rise

And now if you always seem to be alright, oh oh

I promise you that I will find

A way to give you peace of mind

So please hold on for another while

Oh, I shouldn't be here

The things I've put you through

There's nothing without you