Binge

It's 5 am Laying wired on the cold hard floor My mind is racing I'll be pacing through these halls Like a prison cell My brain is maimed Nothing has changed I'm stuck in my old ways As I fight to live through This darkened daze Methodical dissection Looking at me In my reflection Is a corpse In remission Old body Same pain Once the smoke had cleared It revealed the masquerade Can't feel my face I feel sick and deranged Another night of self loathing The bitter drip Down my throat Asphyxiate Watch me fucking choke Emotionless like a machine Let my consciousness fade So I can forget that I Am fucking living Sold serotonin took my soul away from me Been making myself bleed No sympathy I've swallowed happy just to find Cold misery An able body enslaved Void of empathy I let my world dissolve Like the substance I've consumed it Took me away from you Carried your demons on my back Am I afraid of what I'll never have? Emotionless like a machine Let my consciousness drain So I can forget that I Am fucking living Sold serotonin took my soul away from me Been making myself bleed No sympathy I've swallowed happy just to find Cold misery An able body enslaved Void of empathy We binge and abuse Like it's nothing new Watch me force it down my throat Split my head in two Watch me force it down my throat Split my fucking head in two Branded by my demons With the image of death To remind me that there's nothing left Bathe me in the dirt From my coffins cracks To remind me there's no turning back There's nothing left Bathe me in the dirt From my coffins cracks To remind me there's no turning back There's nothing left