I'm Still Here

23, going on 80 I'm not in the mood to party Haven't really got many friends At peace with my own company Guess you could say that I'm lonely Still, I would rather be in bed before the night ends 24, the tears still pour Lay all my thoughts out on the floor and Try to make sense of them I know that I could just give in Admit defeat and take something But I don't wanna be sleepwalking through my life again At 15 I wanted to die At 16 boys made me cry At 17 didn't know how to cope And at 18 I lost all hope From 19 to 23 I was a worse version of me Then I got to 24 and realised that I deserve more Now 25, halfway to 50 I'm not even halfway to who I wanna be But I'm still here and I'm still trying and If I'm going down, then I'm going down fighting Woo hoo Woo hoo Woo hoo Woo hoo 25, look in my eyes My pupils shrink and grow in size but Can you see any life in there? Sadness never goes out of style I haven't been happy in a while I will be nicer to myself I swear At 15 I wanted to die At 16 boys made me cry At 17 didn't know how to cope And at 18 I lost all hope From 19 to 23 I was a worse version of me Then I got to 24 and realised that I deserve more Now 25, halfway to 50 I'm not even halfway to who I wanna be But I'm still here and I'm still trying and If I'm going down, then I'm going down fighting Woo hoo Woo hoo Woo hoo Woo hoo Here I am, just getting started Yesterday's dearly departed Guess it's never too late To follow your dream I'm so glad I didn't end it all At 15 I wanted to die At 16 boys made me cry At 17 didn't know how to cope And at 18 I lost all hope From 19 to 23 I was a worse version of me Then I got to 24 and realised that I deserve more Now 25, halfway to 50 I'm not even halfway to who I wanna be But I'm still here and I'm still trying and If I'm going down, I'm going down fighting Woo hoo Woo hoo Woo hoo Woo hoo I'm still here and I'm still trying and If I'm going down, then I'm going down fighting Woo hoo Woo hoo Woo hoo Woo hoo