Disarray

I'm a mess

I'm a sad

Do it all myself

You'll never find me tryna be someone else

No I don't care

I really don't care

If you didn't then

You might see it now

Just haunted by the ghost here in this heartbreak house

But I don't care

I really really don't care

I wouldn't want to clear it up

It's the light and it's the shade

When the days fall hard with sticks and stones

Let them ricochet

Oh it's not love if it ain't disarray

And I don't ever wanna change it

Just because I'm falling

Doesn't mean I wanna be saved

So I'll float in the chaos and won't come down

Coz it feels like I'm myself

In this disarray

I'm awake half asleep

Yeah I'm on the brink

Of an existential crisis it's normal for me

No I don't care

I really don't care

And I never think right before I speak

But I'm not gonna paint you a different picture of me

No I don't care

I know you wish that I cared

I wouldn't want to clear it up

It's the light and it's the shade

When the days fall hard with sticks and stones

Let them ricochet

Oh it's not love if it ain't disarray

And I don't ever wanna change it

Just because I'm falling

Doesn't mean I wanna be saved

Oh it's not love if it ain't disarray

And I don't ever wanna change it

Just because I'm falling

Doesn't mean I wanna be saved

So I'll float in the chaos and won't come down

Coz it feels like I'm myself

In this disarray