Faultline

It's funny how I sensed it, funny how I knew

How one so easily became two

We went to either end and now we're in-between

'Cause all we ever did was replay the same scene

I didn't wanna say it, hoped it wasn't true

I know you thought it came out of the blue

I could barely even look you in the eye

And I don't know why I couldn't even cry

I need to let go, let go

'Cause you're not my responsibility

And though I don't show, you must know

The way we were was slowly killing me

We turned our relationship into a faultline

But I'm still addicted to you in the same way you are addicted to wine

So we fell apart

But all we had was broken from the start

And I knew

Despite all of this, I still can't let go

I'm still dreaming of you

I must be out of my mind

Pretending I am doing just fine

When deep down inside

All I ever wanted was your love

I tried to comprehend it, tried to tell the truth

Stop thinking of myself and think of you

But validation wasn't easy to receive

And I got swallowed up by insecurity

I wanted to be perfect, wanted to be strong

Hide from everyone if I got something wrong

Thought I was easier to love if I was thin

So I stopped eating and stopped feeling anything

I need to let go, let go

Of who I thought you wanted me to be

And though I don't show, you must know

My voice got lost because I couldn't breathe

We turned our relationship into a faultline

But I'm still addicted to you in the same way you are addicted to wine

So we fell apart

But all we had was broken from the start

And I knew

Despite all of this, I still can't let go

I'm still dreaming of you

I must be out of my mind

Pretending I am doing just fine

When deep down inside

All I ever wanted was your love