Conversations With My Therapist

I'll hold my breath 'til I turn blue And cry an ocean in my room Overanalyze the meaning Between the words, I'm reading I'm just as scared at 22 As 12 years old, back at school Consumed by all my feelings Couldn't figure out the reasons I laid my head down on the couch Velvet pink, am I safe now? Scared to say it all out loud What if the sky falls down? What if I never make it out? It isn't up to me, but it's my reality What if time passes by? What if true love is all a lie? Hope one day this will be Just shit I talked about in therapy I always look for exit signs In case I have to run and hide And I fall in love too easy Why am I surprised they leave me? 'Cause I'm a perfectionist Not saying I'm competitive But if being scared was the Olympics I'd be a gold medalist I laid my head down on the couch Velvet pink, am I safe now? Please don't make me say it out loud What if the sky falls down? What if I never make it out? It isn't up to me, but it's my reality What if time passes by? What if true love is all a lie? Hope one day this will be Just shit I talked about in therapy And I hate that I think like this And you'll say I'm just a pessimist I wanna know what normal feels like What if the sky falls down? What if I never make it out? It isn't up to me, but it's my reality What if I can't move on? What if I was right all along? See you same time next week Got more to talk about in therapy