3.30, I'm crying myself to sleep again

Told to be a man so I bury my feelings deep within

Some hate me, some love me, it's like I'm

switching skin

Only time I catch a break is when my breaking point begins

Way too invested, my family says I should slow down

I'm living fast like Vin Diesel peak in a showdown

They tell me to express my feelings, "these days, kid, you too close out"

I live in a toxic house, don't have a place to call home now

I just wanna go home now, her arms have turned to a home now

All the girls that's preaching loyalty have turned to hoes now

It's crazy how life will make your ass slow down and put your mind on it's own route

Different mindset from when I started in this music stick

Then I wanted clout but now I want the world to suck my dick

Hate me or love me, you know that one day I'mma be the shit

I'mma come back to this song in three years just to prove this shit

I'm so confused and fucked right in the dome

Been feeling lonely but I still want people to leave me alone

I'm numb to emotion, it's 2am and I'm still on my phone

I'm hardly eating, losing weight and my bones are starting to show

But don't worry I'll bounce back like I always do

This time I'm not too sure, it feels as if my life is overdue

So I write these words on my canvas like how all poets do

And wait until my final breath to tell you "I'm in love with you"