Inhale the Grief

Allow myself to inhale the grief before it clouds every memory

Let me lay where I fall

Not everything can be caught before it hits the bottom

Maybe one day I'll find a place

I'll find a place to call my own

Ordinary and content (The familiar descent)

I'm the worst to myself, the last person I'm willing to help

No empathy, no understanding

All of the things I offer (Always feel like a failure)

To everyone elsе (Let me lay wherе I fall)

So many behaviors to unlearn

Coming to terms with a life twice as hard and half as long

I can't stand to be alone with my thoughts

Always feeling like a fraud (Feeling like a fraud)

No longer am I reserved for the undeserved

I was taught to hate myself before anything else

Living a life of quiet desperation

Waiting for something to come and take us away

A fantasy (A fantasy), just a dream (Just)

A savior would present if only I believed

Nobody gives a fuck about me

Nobody gives a fuck about me and that's how it should be

I was the worst to myself, the last person that I would help

It's taken me until now to dig myself out

I feel like a fuck up, I feel like a failure

But at least it's not every day, and I am getting better