Inhale the Grief

Allow myself to inhale the grief before it clouds every memory Let me lay where I fall Not everything can be caught before it hits the bottom Maybe one day I'll find a place I'll find a place to call my own Ordinary and content (The familiar descent) I'm the worst to myself, the last person I'm willing to help No empathy, no understanding All of the things I offer (Always feel like a failure) To everyone elsе (Let me lay wherе I fall) So many behaviors to unlearn Coming to terms with a life twice as hard and half as long I can't stand to be alone with my thoughts Always feeling like a fraud (Feeling like a fraud) No longer am I reserved for the undeserved I was taught to hate myself before anything else Living a life of quiet desperation Waiting for something to come and take us away A fantasy (A fantasy), just a dream (Just) A savior would present if only I believed Nobody gives a fuck about me Nobody gives a fuck about me and that's how it should be I was the worst to myself, the last person that I would help It's taken me until now to dig myself out I feel like a fuck up, I feel like a failure But at least it's not every day, and I am getting better