Mixing Paint

I'm getting jealous of the lovers on tv

It feels like a lifetime but it's barely been a week

I'm staying up too late when I should be asleep

I need to feel each single moment

Cause it feels like a dream

Wake on the hour all restless and alone

Procrastinate by the addiction to my phone

I can't contain it still you don't even know

You know you're down with the sickness

When you can feel it In your bones

I'm mixing paint

I'm mixing paint

I've got an itch and I'm waiting for the bite

Draw the blood out of my neck during the night

I'm turning cold in the sheets in the crux of a dream

I need to ride out the nightmare cause I'm living asleep

Wake in the middle of a forest alone

Poison ivy is caressing my throat

I try to scream but the leaves have morphed into my bones

I know I'm down with the sickness I can feel it in my soul

I'm mixing paint

I'm mixing paint

A best friend but some bad enough advice

I'm not a criminal for ending a life

Looking up but all I'm seeing is grey

I hope my baby can forgive me someday

I'm mixing paint

I'm mixing paint