I drink and cry

with my bong held tight

I finish a bottle

In just one night

I sit and I shake

And I tremble in fright

I never knew

That this would be my life

My whole world feels

like it's caving in

So I sip some more

And I live in sin

Why do I feel this way?

I think I need some gin

Put my 9 on my hip and I walk into the night

Got a blunt behind my ear, so ofc I'm flying high

Reminiscing on my past, I jus miss my old life

I'd do anything to you have you back

But that won't work out

And I done showed you why

My body's broken, in and out the sides

I know I need to leave, but cannot say goodbye

It feels like a needle piercing through

the back of my spine, am I even alive?

I could make it all up and say that I am fine

Or I can just be honest and admit I hate my life

I could admit I hate my life

I cant say to you

What I can to this mic

I'm tryna harder everyday to delete my mind

Anxiety controls me and make me wanna die

But trust me when I say that I'll always stay right by your side

I may not be perfect

But that's perfectly fine

I just need to see you happy

I need to see that beautiful smile

Everyday I fuckin miss you

Despite the short amount of time

I know that I'll never forget you

you may rest inside of my mind