This song is dedicated to my family that have been through everything that I've been through

I just do it all for you

Where do I begin

Ever since my head injury

I've been defective, infested with misery

Like barbarians when they started tearing apart the perfection in Italy

I don't want attention or sympathy

Just want to be left in Sicily

I feel like I'm being tested by a distant being whose crystal sees all the mistakes and sins I've made within

Always chasing a fix and I'm behaving like this

Maybe that's why my brain was invaded by braces of hits

Because that's the way that I live

They say I better confess to my sins

But I have to confession

I've never confessed to a thing

And the thing is, I don't intend to begin

All I have is my call rap

I'm obsessed with this

I've abandoned friends for this

Whenever I play them a track, they flip

They state that rates like the Phantom Menace did

Hey, you may say I'm bonkers in this crazy noggin

But I approach the slope like I'm David Goggins

You won't erase what I create on a page

No, not again

I'm stopping my morning meds

And y'all get torn to shreds

Because in this time slot, I've got a lot to offend

And I ain't stopping because of your threats

Everything I've been through

It bruises my skin

Everything I've been through

Has me losing things

Everything I've been through

Has me abusing Benz

Everything I've been through

Is why I choose death

Everything I've been through

It bruises my skin

Everything I've been through

Has me losing things

Everything I've been through

Has me abusing Benz

Everything I've been through

Is why I choose death

I've walked through hell and back

They used to talk and yell, he's fat

I'm about to snap

Forced into a callous attack

It's all on the line

And I don't want to fall like a balancing act

With no ropes or belts attached

There's no hope

I've be thrown out the band

Cause honestly

I don't want to be surrounded by crowded hands

but I need thousands of fans

To be able to stamp all my plans

No stable will hand me a grand

Cause my content is constantly embodying what not to be

But if I'm not honest to me

When I'm dropping on a beat

It's like I'm in a coffin and it's rocking and I'm lost at sea

Stop the gossiping

I'm not a fault this time

But I'm still holding the knife

To my wrist to slice

Cause the older I get

The heavier the boulders on my shoulders get

Their pole vaulting the fence

I've got no soldiers left

So it's best that I'm sent to the coldest depths

Better prepare to hold my breath

My goal is set

If I'm not the default the best

I'll scold the rest

Before I'm forced to enrol in death

Cause I've got nothing left

Just the rumbling in my stomach

And all that humming in my head

Everything I've been through

It bruises my skin

Everything I've been through

Has me losing things

Everything I've been through

Has me abusing Benz

Everything I've been through

Is why I choose death

Everything I've been through

It bruises my skin

Everything I've been through

Has me losing things

Everything I've been through

Has me abusing Benz

Everything I've been through

Is why I choose death

Everything I've been through

It bruises my skin

Everything I've been through

Has me losing things

Everything I've been through

Has me abusing Benz

Everything I've been through

Is why I choose death

Everything I've been through

It bruises my skin

Everything I've been through

Has me losing things

Everything I've been through

Has me abusing Benz

Everything I've been through

Is why I choose death