Will I Always Feel This Way?

I'm crying in my car

For the fourth time today

Told my friends things were better

But that was yesterday

Cause now the weather's got me down

I'm tryna think of a way to explain

Where I've been

And why my laugh doesn't sound the same

Oh, will I always feel this way?

Will I always feel this way?

Walk through the doors and I'm good

Wear a smile like I should

Wipe the tears from my face

Tell everybody things are so great

But will I always feel this way?

There's nothing left to do

But talk to myself in the backseat

About how I think I'm going crazy

And there won't be anyone to save me

When I've had enough of the view

Grown bored of the city behind me

Can't run from the person I'm becoming

Or the guilt that's consuming

And I've tried everything

Quit my job

And spent all my money

Cut my hair three times last week

Couldn't make myself happy

Oh, will I always feel this way?

Will I always feel this way?

Walk through the doors and I'm good

Wear a smile like I should

Wipe the tears from my face

Tell everybody things are so great

But will I always feel this way?

Too caught up in my head to stop now

I'm in the back seat of my car passed out

Are these the moments coming of age movies talk about?

Cause it's not pretty to watch the world you built crash down

Oh, will I always feel this way?

Will I always feel this way?

Walk through the doors and I'm good

Wear a smile like I should

Wipe the tears from my face

Tell everybody things are so great

But will I always feel this way?