Feel Her Once Again!

I wish I could find a magical place Where anxiety ain't a real thing Fearless turtles floating in the sky Swallowing these tears killing me My heart got broken by a macaron She was spicy like Szechuan sauce I still remember holding her hand But it was her dead body Next to some broken crockery Should I do drugs till then To feel her once again Why the fuck I hate being sober I don't wanna be alone again Should I do drugs till then To see her once again Why the fuck I hate being sober I don't wanna be alone again Should I do drugs till then To touch her once again Why the fuck I hate being sober I don't wanna be alone again I've been consoling My blood cells in my dreams Cause there's nobody In my life except her I cannot miss her She had my heart locked in her Knitted sweater Lying on my highlander Now it's stabbing me with pistols Of glitters & makeup She wore on my birthday The day that I lost her I wish I could see her I miss my little demon She's such a disaster I wanted her back Don't wither away Cause what we had was real I've been checking on my pulse lub dub lub dub This hearts a beating curse without her I still remember holding her hand But it was dead body Next to some broken crockery Should I do drugs till then To feel her once again Why the fuck I hate being sober I don't wanna be alone again Should I do drugs till then To see her once again Why the fuck I hate being sober I don't wanna be alone again Should I do drugs till then To touch her once again Why the fuck I hate being sober I don't wanna be alone again Ahh the chest pain, I need some cocaine Someone please explain, How her mind operates How her heart feel no pain, Why my loves disdain Now there's a blood stain, On my heart it's open It's leaking a toxic rain, She made me broken She made me broken, She made me broken Why the fuck I'm broken, Everything's distorted Why the fuck I'm broken, She made me broken I want to feel her again I want to see her again I want to touch her again I want to Feel Her again Now i'm afraid to fall in love Afraid to fall in love I'm afraid To fall in love Afraid To fall in love I'm afraid Afraid to fall in love I'm afraid to fall in love I'm afraid To fall in love I'm afraid to fall in love I'm afraid to fall in Love I'm afraid to fall in Love Again I'm afraid To fall in love Again