I lost my mind, then I lost control. What do you do when you find it

I know it's rough like a diamond, but at least give me credit for trying

Then I lost my mind, then I lost you. What do you do when I lost you

My phone I will always pick up, I said I'm down to the end

Yeah, well we in love, but first we were friends

And in my mind I think every good thing has an end

And I'm straight to the gate, but for you I had to bend

And I lost my mind, trying to recover through recovery, trying to make amends

So if I tell you how it is, I don't mean to offend

And sometimes I suffer from the messages I didn't send

And I swear I'm down, I'm living proof, example of a friend

But when I need you, it goes like the wind

And if this is the beginning, I hate this to the end

And I swear I lost my mind, then I lost control

But the thing is I do good outside, but I think I do better within

And if I die tonight, I swear I'm forgiving for my sins, cause I gave it my all

And sometimes I lost my mind, then I lost control

What do you do when you find it? What do you do

Imagine suffering from something you don't know, let alone suffering from the lack of control

Like being on fire, I don't know how to stop, drop, and roll

Or in the ocean, can't swim in no boat to row

Taking suggestions, trying to find something new and get rid of the old

Copping up my environment, apostasy, games and blows

Confined in prison, and I'm getting old with no candles to blow

And I was born to suffer in the first place

And I stayed in position, I was challenged, but never won first place

And I got good sportsmanship, but it hurts to lose in the worst way

I lost my mind, then I lost control

What do you do when you find it