Sleepless nights waiting for her to come home

But she's on a dinner date with another boy Like I don't exist at all

I tried to love to no avail

God please change her mind for I have failed

I have failed

And now I wait for 97 days alone

Being strangers

who had once loved

Once loved

She turned off her cigarette

God please tell me how to turn ashes into flames once more before it's set in stone

And if it is unhealthy god let me destroy myself so long as I can stay

But she just won't stay

Will I get to see you again?

Will I get to love you again?

What should I do when all roads lead back to you?

Will it be another hand that caresses your breasts?

Will it be another's lip that touches yours?

I wouldn't know No I Wouldn't know

Will someone come to hold you as I did?

Will you go find love in somebody else?

Come live a life I dreamt of with you?

Out of spite out of love out of replacing me with another boy?

Out of lust out of disgust out of the weight of my love?

I wouldn't know

I wouldn't know

Why should I know

I shouldn't know

I don't want to know

No you'll be just another person to recall another note to self

Just another girl at the corner of my memories

Sleepless nights waiting for her to come home

I hope my absence brings you joy my love cannot

My love cannot afford

To the days we had 

the days we spent

days we loved oh

to the days I say goodbye

In another life my sweet beautiful girl