Dreams of Absolution

How the fuck I'm supposed to tell them

"I don't wanna be alive if I ain't doing this"

It might seem dramatic, but I know it's true as shit

And disappointed in myself 'cause I ain't doing shit

I've been fucking losing it

All this damn weight on my shoulders

Nothing ever changed, I just got a bit older

Rapping about my self destruction, but I make it bump

Swerving in this foreign, with a deuce in my cup

Scared that I'm, huh, huh, not enough

Hate when they act like they always show me love

Don't wanna hear my problems you just wanna hear about drugs

I'm picking up a pound, big shoutouts to the plug

I'm smoking on a ounce, and I'm smoking on a dub

I haven't seen my brothers I'm just trying to see what's up

Hit a bank with a 100k, now baby that's a bust

Really miss the days we was hopping on a bus

Now I'm onto something new, huh, you already knew

We got dreams of absolution with this sound we coming through

Till my skin turn blue, fuck it, they know what to do

Turn it up loud till your skin turn loose

Turn it up loud we gon' make this shit boom

We gon' bring the bass that's gon' really make them move

And this auto got a drum, it'll make you meet your doom

Who the fuck am I if I ain't walking with a tool

How the fuck I'm supposed to tell them

"I don't wanna be alive if I ain't doing this"

It might seem dramatic, but I know it's true as shit

And disappointed in myself 'cause I ain't doing shit

I've been fucking losing it

All this damn weight on my shoulders

Nothing ever changed, I just got a bit older

Rapping about my self destruction, but I make it bump

Swerving in this foreign, with a deuce in my cup