I don't care I care deeply

I don't love I love completely

I never hate I despise extremely

And my brain loves pain and instability

I'm toying with you but I don't mean to

I'm playing a game that I don't need to

But I don't really trust you

It's hard to fully trust anyone that I'm this close to

I cry for the one's that disrespect me

And I'll push the ones that are there to catch me

Now I'm pointing the finger in the mirror and I'm seeing it all like a paint by number

Each colour it groups for a different patter

And the picture is reliant upon this structure

It's all so clear and formulaic

I project my anguish on another player

When I'm seeing things I don't like

Making it your problem offers false respite

Oh when I'm seeing things I don't like

Well if I'm seeing them in you then they're in me too

I'm toying with you but I don't mean to

I'm playing a game that I don't need to

But I don't really trust you

I find it hard to trust anyone I'm this close to

I'm toying with you but I don't mean to

I know what I do but I can't seem to stop

Do you really love me?

'Cause the voice in my head

Says you're gonna leave

I'm teetering on the saw

I'm living life on its terms for once

I'm teetering on the saw

Not using the things that I used to rely on

I'm teetering on the saw

Reflecting on everything I've ever done wrong

I'm teetering on the saw

Changing how I deal when life gets hard

I'm toying with you but I don't mean to

I'm playing a game that I don't need to

But do you really love me?

'Cause the voice in my head says you're gonna leave

I know people change I'd never hold it against you

At least that's what I've been telling you

But am I just waiting for the day

The day you've seen too much of me and

Walk away