Proud Of Me

I know you proud of me, look at all the shit I prevailed

The youngest of your seeds, making sure the family eat well

I give 'em what they need, I vow we always be well

I told brodie change his ways, I'm praying he don't see jail

To live another day, I'm praying I won't see Hell

Ain't no telling what I'd do for my family, just know I mean well

No, you ain't next to me, no, you ain't next to me

But I'm hoping you can see, I'm praying you can see

A million dollar curses turn to million dollar dreams

A million dollars on me, but girl, it ain't what it seems

I'm having nightmares

I'm having nightmares of my brother clutching on me

Can't see the snakes up in the grass, so will you show me?

"You can't trust these ****, ain't your friends," what you told me

Young man, just stay up out the streets, it could get lonely

"You can do whatever you wanna dream of," what you told me

I ain't understand your words back then, but that's the old me

Now look at me now

I'm walking on the stage, they waiting for me like twenty-three thou'

Too many voices in my head, just know I'm hearing you loud

I'm walking 'round, smile on my face, just know I'm hurting inside

Oh yeah, I'm hurting inside

So I buy diamonds on diamonds on diamonds galore

Chain after chain after chain, what's the worth?

But it seemed to be the only thing that made me happy

I lost my soul and I lost my daddy

I know, I know

I know you proud of me, look at all the shit I prevailed

The youngest of your seeds, making sure the family eat well

I give 'em what they need, I vow we always be well

I told brodie change his ways, I'm praying he don't see jail

To live another day, I'm praying I won't see Hell

Ain't no telling what I'd do for my family, just know I mean well

No, you ain't next to me, no, you ain't next to me

But I'm hoping you can see, I'm praying you can see

Hundred dollar nightmares turn to million dollar dreams

Riding past the block where my dad got left on the scene (Brrrt)

Look at your little boy now, we done turned to kings

Shit turned me a grown man 'fore I was seventeen

Had to go and play my own hand, I did this for Nasheema and the whole fam

I got everything, but I just really wanna hold hands

With my old man on wedding day while we slow dance

But ain't no love, shot him in his heart, ain't have no chance

So I can't sleep, 'somniac, bullet holes out the Pontiac

Swear to God, I'd trade in all these riches to get Robbie back

Swear to God, I'd trade in all these foreigns to get Terry back

I'm hanging out with my daddy, lost his life, and I'm aware of that

You had taught me how to fight

And when you got shot, I thought about that shit every night

Ain't got a Glock, I was hot, but I ain't stop

I just bought your mama a spot and winning out

She was living PHA, now can't nobody kick us out

Scared to show up to your grave 'cause I might try dig it out

Like you know I did this shit for you

Never heard you say it back, still be like "I miss you too"

And when I catch the **** that did this to you, he getting sent to you

Skipping school, Daddy dead, fuck the principal

She think I'm missing screws, when really, I'm just missing you

My homie dad gon' pick us up, I want you to get me too

I was kinda mad I ain't had one, it used to hit me too

Nipsey blue Cullinan, I'm in the Ghost, I think of you

Think of bro, I think of Snupe, I think 'bout B, it make me, ooh

Money rule the world, but you can't pay God with it

I'd spend it all just to get back my ****

I know you proud of me, look at all the shit I prevailed

The youngest of your seeds, making sure the family eat well

I give 'em what they need, I vow we always be well

I told brodie change his ways, I'm praying he don't see jail

To live another day, I'm praying I won't see Hell

Ain't no telling what I'd do for my family, just know I mean well

No, you ain't next to me, no, you ain't next to me

But I'm hoping you can see, I'm praying you can see