I follow where my heart leads, sometimes that's all I know

Then I end up defeated when I lose all self-control

But I'm not the villain, and I'm not the good guy either

If I'm such a problem, why'd you let me keep her?

Last night I was fucking it up

I can't lie, I kept refilling my cup

And though I know, I shouldn't ever wanna drink like that

I have a couple issues that I got from dad, oh

I've tried to end it all, and finally feel the repercussion

Now I know that it's stupid, all the memories would be for nothing

You should meet a better guy, you should prolly dip

You should prolly split, nothing is what you thought it is

If you need some peace of mind, I can let you go

God knows, girl, yeah, I'm such a fucking joke

If you see me doing fine, it's another act

I'm an addict, not an artist, never take me back

If I see another day, it's another bit

I'm just tryna make you smile, ain't it obvious

I've set my standards so damn high

I don't know if I'll make it out this time

I wanna tell you I've healed and I'm fine

But everyone knows that's a lie

I follow where my heart leads, sometimes that's all I know

Then I end up defeated when I lose all self-control

But I'm not the villain, and I'm not the good guy either

If I'm such a problem, why'd you let me keep her?