Open my eyes

I don’t wanna open my eyes

Cause all I can see is wolves in disguise

Gun goes off in the ghetto another yute dies

And we’re all gonna stand there and lie

Say he must have been guilty and all that shite

It’s like we don’t value a life

The victim and the gun man used to be tight

I guess it’s always the way

Friends turn foe and the tide turns, rules go a stray

Man think the fools gone away

My heart sinks when I think of the youth o’ today

N I got my ear to the street

So I hear it when these things happen

I told Kate that I can’t stop rappin

Cause more time the people hear it from me

A clean heart with a voice of the streets

I think about Sonko, I think about Mzee I think about Mari I think about Reekz

N then think nobody thinks about me

I try and mask what god sees

N I think deep down ima burn in the heat

When I think of the friend that I’ve been

Or the son that I’ve been

Why do we hurt the ones we love the most?

Like sometimes I look in the mirror and I don’t even see Koj I see Joseph

I see this guy that’s made so many mistakes.. I’ve let family down, I’ve let my community down

But I can’t let my losses define me. True winners start from right now

A wise man and a dear friend once told me, talent will get you there.. but character will keep you there

All these traumatic situations I’ve experienced are the very thing that made me I am today

So what do ya think

Is it discipline tings or solved with a drink

I don’t wanna deal with my problems I watch my my feelings pour down the sink

Tony Soprano I went to a shrink

She told me it’s never as bad as you think

But I told her I been at the brink

These deaths live in my head and they don’t pay rent they don’t clean up after themselves

And they get louder as I’m going to bed

I don’t sleep I don’t rest

And my doctors an opp cause he called me depressed real shit I don’t bother nobody

I wake some mornings I feel like I’m dead

I can’t l myself out of bed

Me and a friend of a friend smoke joints in the shed

And I don’t know what’s worse

The fact that I lost touch with god-

Or the fact every night I get burse

I been tryna do what works

But it’s like nothin works

I smoke weed and I don’t feel touched

I drink drink til I don’t feel much

I remember it was me, Trap, Jono n Butch

Tryna get wins in clutch

Now it feels so much changed

Just after Cov 19 I watched the general public goin insane

set man took a vaccine to the brain

They were calling me selfish. Oh what a shame

They don’t listen to Kojo, til it’s too late

I just don’t have it in me to quit lad it’s like I’d rather give it 100% and fall short than hold back.

Keeping all this energy in reserve bro it’s just not me like

What else have we got lad? There’s no pot of gold at the end of the rainbow for me bro. There isn’t

fuck all waiting for me bro. I’m tryna build this shit from the ground up. Help or no help I’m up from the

mornin tryna work this shit out rinse and repeat

I’m always stuck in survival mode

It’s mad cause my life’s goin ok but I’m always stuck in that primal mode

Do or die it’s the tribal mode

I know the truth but I keep that shit for myself and watch the lies unfold

Been this way since 5 months old

I am the man with a seismic soul

Big Koj a leader of men when shit hits the fan I don’t hide from my role

My heart stays 0 degrees or below, I ain’t gotta try to be cold

Come a long way from 92 days in the trench, all the sky gettin sold

Lecky bikes in slidin’ mode

Man was in ridin’ mode

Go little blackbird

Sing with your soul

Spread those wings of yours

There is room to grow

I will get to

Where I’m meant to be

Only if you sing for me