I hate who I am when I'm thinking and I hate who I am when I'm drinking but when I'm drinking it stop me from thinking thinking that I have been sinking lower and lower and lower feeling like my life is over feeling like I'm going nowhere just feeling and feeling and feeling and feeling and feeling like I should be drinking I gotta stop thinking I gotta start drinking I hate who I am when Im clinging to the times I was actually getting joy from these words I've been winging Joy from the warmth a new day brings joy from all of the small things joy just from anything or anything other than needing and needing and needing and needing and needing to be drinking I gotta start drinking I gotta stop thinking but just take some magnesium and a tasty gummy vitamin go outside in the sun take a walk or go for a run just take some vitamin D and drink some water for can't you see oh can't you see it's the only cure you need one day at a time makes it seem fine it's just another day just another one to throw away but when I add up the time I know it isn't fine I've thrown away and I'll keep throwing away everyday as long as I keep living this way but I like who I am when I'm helpful and I like who I am when I have self control but the times these things happen is pitiful leading to a life that feels regrettable or on the best days forgettable feeling I'm leaning towards wasting wasting your time with my whining or wasting my time always wasting my time always wasting my time always drinking I gotta stop drinking I gotta start drinking I gotta start thinking one day at a time makes it seem fine it's just another day just another one to throw away but when I add up the time I know it isn't fine I've thrown away and I'll keep throwing away everyday as long as I keep living this way