Big prayers big blessings

Big fears, I'm still stressing

It's like I spent my whole life searching

My whole working

To validate my purpose through these verses

My Grandma passed in '08 yall I'm still hurting

Do she still see the God in me I'm not certain

Maybe it's 'cause I'm in and out of churches

It's hard to connect to sermons

When the service ain't aligning worship

And I try to express myself more without cursing

Just know I fall short sometimes I'm not perfect

Picked myself when I felt worthless

Every blessing receive I deserve it

I'm grateful I'm still immersed in the holy water

Prayers up to the Holy Father

Crazy when I read the word

I be like I know the author

Growing up I was too embarrassed to go up the alter

Trying to be cool not knowing that all of those sins will cost ya

Now I'm in own lane fire baby that's propane

And if they nit pick I don't sweat 'em I let em crochet

Yea, I was influenced by the old Ye

I'm seasoned in the game like Old Bay

'08 Jon died a week later moms cried

Remember the titans still trying to gather my strong side

That's word to Gary Bertier, faced a lot hurt here

Never been a rookie y'all not even in my first year

I'm a man I'm tough as nails y'all but I still burst tears

But that's when you know that another verse near

Dressed in all black ain't been the same since that hearse cleared

Yeah

But I'm older now

It ain't over now

The world is colder now

I took a year off and it still feel like I'm holding out

Wake up and smell biscuits y'all especially when they're golden brown

Man I swear this feel like Grandma house

Big prayers big blessings

Big fears, I'm still stressing

It's like I spent my whole life searching

My whole working

To validate my purpose through these verses

Jon passed in '08 yall I'm still hurting

Do he still see the God in me I'm not certain

Maybe it's 'cause I'm in and out of churches

It's hard to connect to sermons

When the service ain't aligning worship

And I know it's getting harder now

Day lights savings it's getting darker out

It's been some years but finally I can start to smile

Teaching these kids everyday it's not an option now

I'm dropping in their lives to make sure they're not dropping out

My heart still goes out to Silas and J

I know that pain that their feeling now cannot be replaced

How I know? They feel the same way I did in '08

Losing your biggest inspiration at a very young age

I know it's hard y'all

Yeah

Just keep your faith in God y'all

Yeah

And if you ever need me I got you

Keep going don't let 'em stop you

And if ever want to know how I got through

Just know that it was the

Big prayers big blessings

Big fears, I'm still stressing

It's like I spent my whole life searching

My whole working

To validate my purpose through these verses

My Grandma passed in '08 y'all I'm still hurting

Do she still see the God in me I'm not certain

Maybe it's because I'm in and out of churches

It's hard to connect to sermons

When the service ain't aligning worship

I promise it was them big prayers